Big Fat Apathetic 4

Dieting is hard. It’s really only fun for the first day or so. I have hit the slump…big time! Busyness has kept me from writing this week. Self-pity for my busy weekend has cancelled out my conscience and accountability. I haven’t done my best this weekend. In fact, I’d give the last few days a big fat (pun intended and definitely descriptive)

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I definitely lost more than I won. This is the time when I typically quit on my resolution. This is when you quietly disappear and hope no one remembers your brave words just a short time ago. This is when I come up with excuses.


However, this time is very different. For some reason, I have it settled in my heart that quitting is not an option. Not this month, this year, or any time in my life. I hope that sticks around. I hope I will keep on feeling determination even after a sad four of a weekend.


No, determination is not my problem. My problem is apathy. I have other things on my mind, other concerns and demands on my time that block out any desire to work at this. I don’t want to think about what the better choice would be. I don’t care about Scripture. I want to just forget my life while I eat, not think about my fullness level every bite. I know I need to keep taking this to the next level. I need to keep making better choices. Yet, right now I’m just doing the bare minimum to get by…and it’s hurting my progress. I have made no progress and in fact may have gained a pound this week.


I think it’s time to be done with the apathy. I honestly have no idea how to accomplish that. All I can do is pray to God for the strength and wisdom to not waste my time, but instead keep doing this WELL!


It’s Monday… Here’s to a better week!